Better than

Amy Grant – Better than a Hallelujah

Refrain: We pour our miseries
God just hears a melody
Beautiful the mess we are
honest cries of a breaking heart
better than a hallelujah

About half of this song has been rattling through my head the last few days. Along with a comment at the end of a meeting, “she’s cute” after my very excited exclamation that I was looking forward to the next meeting I would be having later in the afternoon. I assure you that the comment was not an insult.
I’ve been thinking a lot about being authentic. I’ve been thinking a lot about who I am, my place in this world, my place in the quilting world. I’ve been thinking a lot about the gift of quilting and how grateful I am for this gift and all that has come with it.
I’ve been thinking a lot about how my heart cries out to God free to express itself. I’ve been thinking about how faith and emotion – no matter how lively or dry, joyful or grief filled, overwhelmed or joyous – this all comes out in the quilt making – and how the experience of life looks like a quilt.
I can see the stitching in the quilt how it’s clear the hot mess it was where I was a beginner, how it’s gotten better over time, more intense at others and just dances here and there. Beautiful the mess we are
And at times things feel messy – out of control with nothing to be done about it
God just hears a melody
God hears me, hears my melody, the offering of my heart
honest cries of a breaking heart
the heart of a woman who hopes to have listened well and has found her vocation – for now – as a teacher of quilting; the heart of a woman who genuinely loves to see others do well; the heart of a woman who doesn’t mind growing slowly and who is not offended by being “cute” because the joy of my heart is recognized.
better than a hallelujah
Hallelujah!!!

God bless!

Teri